♥ Mental ♥ Heart ♥

some days feel alone, rolling on & on like a stone.
some days feel like chores, I get more than I bargained for.
A heavy plate for one to undertake.
i’d hate for you to say I told you so,
you thought you’d let me know.
some people, they taste like lemonade,
some people, can feel like razorblades.
i wish i could float away, some days more than others lets say.
make it sweet, a sweet goodbye.
it could be for the last time, its not right.
don’t let yourself get in over your head,
alone & far from home.
throw the bottle, break the door & disappear.
& you said to ask you anything 
well, i spend my days by the telephone that never rang.
& all i needed was a call, that never came.
lost & insecure, you found me, laying on the floor.
surrounded, surrounded, you have me surrounded.
why’d you have to wait? where were you, just a little to late.

get away, hurry up, come on,
this is becoming a catastrophe.
i made up my mind, too tired to think
everything i have to do, too many things.
i’ll try to comprehend where to quit,
& where i should begin.
i know that i shouldn’t let it get to me, but it does,
& who am i kidding? this city really gets to me.
so tell me honestly, did you ever really want this?
because my jealous heart really can’t take that.
but i’ll be okay, is that what you want me to say?

lets play a game of russian roulette,
i’ll load the gun, you place the bets.
over & over & over again, we play the same old game.
cards kept close to our chests, that’s where your secrets kept.
so wear that cheap smuck on your face,
hands to the fool, hands to the thief.
cut me up & wear my skin, tear me down, clean me up.
get out your guns, the battles begun,
if loves a fight, that i shall die, with my heart on this trigger.
they say before you start a war, you better know what you’re fighting for.
I’m an angel with a shotgun, fighting till the wars won,
& i don’t care if heaven won’t take me back.

you drank the poison & i, i let you in.
would you trade that heart of gold,
for a minute in my skin.